We May Go

For this post (and next posts, hopefully), I would like to dedicate this medium to tell all of you what did I do and where did I go each month. Since I easily forget everything, so I couldn't remember what did I do and where did I go until April 2017. Hence, the posts will start on May 2017. I hope i could spend a day or two (hopefully more..) to go somewhere every month, especially it will be my last year studying and staying in US. So here we go..

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~ May 2017 ~

May is the graduation month for most of my Penn State seniors. There were 3 days of graduation ceremonies according to colleges and majors. I attended one of them which was for Eberly College of Science. Main reason for that was because my usrah naqib (Izhar) is a biotech major so this is his college. Here are the pictures taken outside BJC...

Izhar

Azree

Diva Elleesa

Qusairy

Ariff

Beautiful Naddy and Pretty Nisa

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Also this month, my friends (Cepi and Hajar) and I went around Penn State because we had nothing to do that day. We went inside Stacks section in Pattee Library to use the old-school elevator, you know the one with the steel that we need to pull to the side to close the door. It was the first time for me (and maybe theirs too) to use such elevator. Hajar was so afraid if we were breaking a rule or something because we never heard anyone ever use that elevator except the library's janitors. It turned out alright although the janitor looked at us suspiciously when we got out of it. Pretty funny experience.

 It was also the first time we went inside Old Main building. The interior is really nice and beautiful. Again, Hajar thought we were breaking any rule for wandering around the administration building. That woman needs to chill! I didn't take a lot of pictures but here's one, a picture of me with the luxurious looking stairs inside the historical building..

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Later in the month, my friends (Faris, Aman, Najwa and Hajar) and I went food hunting in New York City. We went to some of the famous food establishments (mainly dessert cafes) and the food were all great. I wore shorts for the day and a shirt without a jacket because I thought it was going to be warm, since it was around the end of spring, but it was cold as hell (pretty ironic to use this expression, huh?). Luckily, I brought along kain pelikat to keep me warm. Mind you, I walked around with that kain pelikat in Times Square (people will judge me if I do this in Malaysia). Here's are some pictures..

This is the first picture that got me more than 200 likes in Instagram

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The last thing I did in this month was celebrating my friend, Hani's birthday! I planned his surprise birthday picnic party at Old Main lawn with the rest of us who were still in State College. Turned out it was also my other friend, Nazmi Hanis' birthday too! We thought it was going to be a warm kind of day, but the wind was quite strong so we didn't stay out long because it was cold. Here are some pictures..

Birthday boys: Nazmi and Hani 

Wish Be Granted

I am now at a point in my life where having conflicts is a mundane activity, to say the least. Guess adulthood is never that easy, huh?

Throughout my life, I've been battling with myself over my identity. I was, and maybe am, never a normal boy. I carried out my life living a fantasy that no one, even someone who is like me, would ever understand.

I keep on wishing my life would be that simple. If I would easily live like those boys in my neighborhood. Never had to doubt their decisions, never had to battle this kind of insecurity, never had to face judgments from anyone just because being their own selves.

Well I guess we don't always get what we are wishing for, right?

But lately, I've been having this kind of feeling which I feel weird about. The kind of feeling which I've had always wishing for. The kind of feeling of being normal. Talk about you wish never be granted, huh?

I am not so sure myself. Maybe it is just a new phase in life which I just have to face. Maybe this feeling will fade away, like all that I had previously. Maybe it is just temporary.

But this feeling is giving me hope. This feeling is giving me a chance to be someone who I have been always dreaming to be. This is euphoria.

I hope it is permanent, for I am ready.

Adios Azizos!

Dusty Old Blog

It has been a very long time since I posted anything in this blog *blowing off the dust* *literally*

I am currently at work (Commons Desk) and I don't have anything to do now so I was just clicking things on Google Chrome of my newly-bought Macbook Air and I stumbled upon the bookmark of this blog and so I clicked it and here I am, writing aimlessly (wonder why this does not happen when I have to write essays for homework.. oh well).

Everything is great now. I have finished my junior year in Penn State about a month ago and I am currently on summer break. This Wednesday (June 7th), I'll be off to Istanbul for a week-long vacation, which *obviously* I am really looking forward to.

So, that's all for now. I don't really have anything to say. Till we meet again (LOL?)

Adios Azizos!